Friday, March 27, 2015

I FINALLY have a Daddy!!

I've been searching for a nasty, aggressive, older, big-cocked Daddy for awhile now and I finally found one! I've been searching on Craig's List, SilverDaddies, and other such sites, for an older man that wanted an ongoing relationship with me. Someone who wanted to pimp my ass out and challenge my limits. Someone who would take me to truck stops and whore me out. Someone who would encourage me to be the biggest, nastiest, sluttiest cumdump around. Well, I'm pleased to announce, I found one!

He's an older guy, mid-60's, grey hair, tan, beer belly, nice fat cock. We met online and he invited me over one afternoon for what he called an audition. When I got there I was really pleasantly surprised. he was hot. When I walked in he looked me up and down and ordered me to take off all my clothes, which I did. He led me into the living room where he offered me a drink, which I accepted. He sat next to me on the couch, still fully clothed, and we chatted for a bit getting to know each other. He asked me what I wanted in a Daddy and what I was looking for.

I told him that I was a total slut and can never get enough cocks up my ass. I told him that I wanted a Daddy to take me to the next level of perversion, a Daddy that would push my limits, a Daddy that would humiliate me and that would treat me like the worthless fuck hole I am.

He just grinned and shook his head and replied, "I can do that for you".

"Good", I replied, as my cock began to swell.

He then asked me what I liked about getting fucked.

I told him I loved surrendering my hole to men and that I feel a sense of pride and self worth when a man shoots him cum up my ass. I feel a sense of accomplishment and am happy to know I've just made a man feel so good. I told him that I feel it's my job or my duty to provide my holes for men to get off in and that I exist to make men happy.

We talked a bit more discussing my sexual history, etc. then he asked if I was ready for my audition?

"Of course!", I replied.

"I only have one rule... you can never say 'No'. If you do, that's fine, but you and I are over and I won't see you anymore. Ok?"

"Ok" I said.

He led me into the bedroom and told me to get onto the bed. He grabbed a camera and told me to get on my hands and knees. He started taking pictures of my ass. He then told me to get on my back and spread my legs open and he took more pics of me.

"These are for your ad", he said.

"My ad?", I questioned.

"Yeah, you'll see."

He then went to his computer and created a Craig's List ad titled, "No Load Refused Bottom Slut For Use" and uploaded my pics. He then started emailing my pics to "friends" of his offering me up.

He then went to a drawer and took out a few dildos and lube and told me to start getting my hole ready. I was so fucking horny and turned on! This is exactly what I'v been looking for.

As I was opening my hole, Daddy set up a tripod with a video camera. When he was done he ordered me on my hands and knees and wrote "CUM DUMP" across my ass cheeks with arrows pointing to my hole.

About 30mins later, Daddy's phone began to ring. "Here we go", I said to myself.

.... stay tuned for my next post where I tell you all about my first night with Daddy. I ended up staying there for about 24hrs and took 19 cocks in total!!


I've noticed that for a lot of bareback bottoms, their descent started slowly... taking a load here and there from friends or regular fuck buds. Then they advertise their hole is available for NEG tops and they take NEG loads for awhile until they start just not caring anymore and start taking anon loads.

For me, my path was different. I did take 1 load from a guy I met online who said he was NEG, but then my next load was an anon gloryhole load. From that point on, it never occurred to me to only take NEG loads or to question status and it's because from the very first anon load I took, I became an anon bottom. I always preferred anonymous, sleazy sex in public places, often through gloryholes or while blindfolded. It's kind of hard to ask for status when you've blindfolded yourself and your lubed hole is on display for an entire porn theater, or when it's dark and you're bent over a tree somewhere at night. How does one negotiate status when you post your address online and wait face down, ass up for strangers to come and breed you? You don't.

I went from 0 to total anonymous cumdump after just one cock and I never looked back.

Even when I'm not fucking in public and I'm at some guy's house, or the rare occasion I'm getting fucked at my place and not blindfolded, I never ask about condoms or status, I just get the cock wet and spread my hole open, taking whatever cums my way.

I look back at all the years I was fucking with condoms and think what a waste of time that was. If I had it to do all over again, i certainly would have been a bareback bottom from the beginning. I don't discriminate, no load refused.

Wednesday, December 17, 2014

Being a Public Cumdump is My Job

Awhile ago I decided that my ass was no longer mine, it belongs to the public. My hole is freely available to anyone and everyone that wants to use it. The only requirements are you have to have a hard cock and be willing to dump your load inside me. After all, I should get something out of it. As of today, hundreds, if not thousands of men have used my ass for their pleasure, fucking it raw and depositing their cum inside me. Most of the cum I've taken has been from total anonymous strangers and most of the men I never see. That's the beauty of my hole, it doesn't discriminate. Not being able to see the men I'm letting use my hole allows me to freely give my hole to them without judgement and allow me to concentrate on what I truly enjoy, being a public cumdump whore. I love taking my hole out in public and offering it up to anyone who wants it and believe me, plenty of men seem to want it. I never say no. I'm at the park so often whoring my ass out men have begun to expect me. They know my ass will be there,, they know it'll be lubed up with plenty of cum, and they know they can do whatever they want to me.

I feel like I kind of "own" my little area in the park, like it's my office where I go to "work" and provide a free service to the community. I feel like it's my job to go there and provide a free ass for men that want to get off and drain their balls. Sure, I see other bottoms in the park (mostly cocksuckers) from time to time, but I'm always there. Plus a lot of the other bottoms cruise around looking for their perfect guy, playing games, being picky. Not me. I've never seen another bottom wearing fuck-me jeans, or stripping down to lingerie letting everyone fuck them like I do. I've got my little spot. My cove where I go and just bend over taking all cummers, and men know that.

Yesterday I went to my little spot, stripped down to just my tennis shoes, laid my blanket down, lubed my ass,  blindfolded myself, got face down ass up, and opened up shop.

I stayed there for hours, alternating positions to get comfortable. Sometimes on my back, all fours, on my stomach, or face down ass up. I took every single cock that came my way. I honestly have no idea how many men ran through me, nor do I really care. For me it's about providing a service and being on the clock. obviously the more cum the better, but when it comes down to it, I was there working for a few hours and if 5 cocks wanted to fuck me or 50 cocks wanted to fuck me, it's all the same, my hole is there regardless.

The last couple of men that fucked me I could barely feel. My ass was so numb and raw at that point all I could feel is pressure and that's totally fine with me. They all got to dump their sperm in me just the same and I'm sure it felt great to them.

Wednesday, December 03, 2014

Blindfolded at the Makeshift Sling

I was really fucking horny the other day and wanted to take my whoring to the next level. I decided I would return to the park and prop myself up on the makeshift sling I blogged about here. Only this time, I was going to wear a blindfold and just take whatever came my way, in broad daylight, during the middle of the day!

I pre-lubed my asshole by injecting my own cum up my hole, like usual, and headed out to the park. When I arrived at the makeshift sling location, no one was there. "Good", I thought, "gives me time to get set up". I wasn't wearing my fuck-me jeans, I was wearing sweats which I took off completely. I laid a towel down across the bottom supporting branches, propped myself onto the towel, laid back, and spread my legs placing them on the branch above. My cock was hard as a rock. I stayed there, leaned back for a second taking it all in. Was I really going to do this? I'm in the middle of a wooded park, in broad daylight, with only a t-shirt and sneakers on, legs spread open with my cummy hole exposed. I was totally vulnerable in this position. If someone were to walk up the path, there was no way I'd have time to hide or get dressed, am I really going to blindfold myself while like this? Fuck yeah I am! I surveyed the scene one last time, laid back, put the blindfold on and said to myself, "here we go!"

I'm not sure how much time passed, but it felt like twenty minutes at least and then I heard the familiar sound of cracking of sticks and leaves. My heart immediately began racing and my cock was so hard I thought it was going to burst. Someone's coming! I heard the footsteps getting closer and closer, and I could tell the person was right next to me.

"Holy shit!", the stranger exclaimed.

I had one hand on my nipple and the other gently stroking my cock. I felt a hand on my leg as the stranger approached. Then I felt a hand on each leg, gently rubbing them. I removed my hand from my cock and placed both hands on my nipples as my stranger began exploring my body. He began stroking my cock with one hand and put his finger inside my ass with his other. I heard a lot of rustling on the ground below me, then I felt a tongue on my asshole. He began tonguing my hole. I was so turned on I guess I didn't even hear another guy approach until I heard his voice.

"Nice, is this yours?", Stranger 2 asked Stranger 1.
"Nope, I just found him like this."
"Wow!", exclaimed Stranger 2
"I know! And he's full of cum!"
"That's a good boy.", encouraged Stranger 2.

I heard the sound of a belt unbuckling and in seconds I felt the warm tip of a cock at the entrance of my hole. I'm pretty sure it was Stranger 1. I reached down with both hands and spread my ass wide for him as he pressed the entire length of his cock inside my aching hole. He sat there, balls deep inside me for a few seconds before he began pumping in and out of me.

"Fuck him", Stranger 2 demanded.
"Yeah, fuck me", I cooed.

I felt hands all over me, stroking my cock, pinching my nipples, and rubbing my stomach as Stranger 1 continued fucking me. I reached down to feel his cock. No condom! Thank God. About a minute later Stranger 1 picked up the pace and began slamming his cock into me.

"I'm going to cum!", Stranger 1 announced just seconds before I felt his body spasming as he emptied his nuts deep inside me. He stayed balls deep inside me, rubbing my legs and body as every last bit of his cum was milked out of his cock by my greedy asshole.

He pulled his cock out of me and I could feel the cum pour out of my gaping hole and onto the leaves below me.

"My turn!", Stranger 2 announced. I heard Stranger 2 take his place at my hole but didn't feel anything right away, just silence, then I heard the sound of a phone camera snapping a picture. "God damnit, not again", I thought to myself.

"Fuck yeah, look at the cummy fuckhole", Stranger 2 said as I heard more pics being taken.

I reached down and spread my hole again, hoping to encourage him to put the camera down and fuck me. My encouragement worked. I felt his hands on my and then the tip of his cock entered my ass. He began slowly fucking my slutty fuckhole, sliding his meat all the way in, then all; the way out of my hole, leaving my hole gaped oped, then back in again. Every time he slid back into me, I could hear these amazing sloppy squishy noises. He grabbed my cock and started jerking me off as he took his time sliding his cock in and out of me.

"You've got a nice hole, boy", he complimented as he continued using me.
"mmmmmm", I replied as I smiled.

As he was fucking me, another man must have walked up. Again, I had no idea until I felt his hands on my nipples and his cock pressed against my face. The cock was hard and I tried to turn my head to suck it, but he must have been short because the angle just didn't work. About thirty seconds later I felt warm cum shooting onto my face, lips, and mouth! He must have been jerking off and just unloaded on my face! I licked up as much as my tongue could reach and just left the rest there as a trophy.

"Ready for my load, boy?", Stranger 2 asked.
"Fuck yeah! Breed me!"

He grabbed my hips and unloaded his babies into my slutty butt. It felt so good!

"Thanks, whore", he said as he walked away.

All of a sudden, silence. Three strangers just came and went. They used me and my holes for their pleasure and as quickly as they appeared, they disappeared. I wanted to take my blindfold off so badly, but I didn't. I remained in place, heart pounding, cock still hard as a rock. About five minutes later I heard more footsteps coming toward me. The footsteps got closer and closer until I could hear the person was right next to me. I thought my heart was going to explode out of my chest. What was going to happen? Then I heard footsteps again walking away. Fuck! The person was leaving! Was it even a cruiser? What if it was just a random hiker? What if it was a woman? Whoever it was, they obviously weren't interested in a a free, public cumdump.

I wonder what they thought as they approached and saw me. Naked from the waist down, laying back in a makeshift sling in the middle of a park during the middle of the day. My butthole gaped open with cum dripping out of it, puddles of cum below me, cum all over my face, BLINDFOLDED, just waiting in public for anyone and everyone to come along and dump loads into my breeding hole. A true no-load-refused public cumdump. I must have looked like the most disgusting, desperate, sluttiest human being ever. Honestly, at that moment, I wished the entire world could se me like that. I wished every man on the planet was lined up waiting to take his turn at seeding my hole. I wished my father could see me. To see what a cumdump I've become. To see his son spent his days blindfolded in the park letting any and every man cum deep inside him. No load refused.

Just then I heard more footsteps. They got closer and then I didn't hear anything. Seconds later I felt a finger slide into my hole! The finger was replaced with a cock and Stranger 4 lasted only about 30 seconds before I heard him grunt, convulse a bit, and then I felt his cock pull out of me as quickly as it went in. Then I heard footsteps walking away. The entire experience from start to finish lasted maybe 60 seconds! A true pump'n'dump!

I stayed in this position for a good hour it felt like. Three more men ran through me for a total of six anonymous loads up my butt and one all over my face. When the last guy left, I gave it about five more minutes and I didn't hear anything so I sat up and took off my blindfold. It was starting to get dark. I looked around and thank god my sweat pants were still there! I hadn't even thought about what would have happened if someone stole them! I got down from my makeshift sling and almost jumped a bit when I noticed a guy standing there.

"Hi", he said, noticing I was startled.
"Hi", I replied.
"That was pretty hot."
"Thanks", I said.

How long had he been there? I wondered. Did he fuck me? Was he the guy who kept walking? Who knows, who cares. I was super embarrassed though and wanted to get out of there as quickly as possible. I went home, pushed out the loads that the strangers were gracious enough to leave inside me, and jerked off with their cum. I didn't shower afterward, or even clean up, I got dressed and went to the gloryhole for more cock and cum. I ended up eating three more loads and got another two loads up my asspussy.

Wow! What a day.

Wednesday, November 12, 2014

Weekly Load Roundup - 11/12/2014

I've been really busy whoring my sweet little fuckhole out to anyone and everyone who wants it. So much so that I'd never have enough time to write about it all, so I've decided to start doing Load Roundups giving you pigs a recap of my week in loads.

Wednesday I  put ads on the internet and did a blindfolded pump'n'dump session at my house. As usual, I emailed and texted my address to anyone that responded to my ads and spent hours face-down-ass-up in the middle of my living room as men came and went. There's something really hot about not being able to see anything and letting strangers come to my house and just use my hole. Seven men came over that day and all bred and used my pussy. When I was done my asshole was gaped open and puddles of cum were beneath me, running down my legs, all over my cock, and all over my balls. I think some of the men were regulars because I recognized the email addresses, although who knows. I sent my address to over 50 men and only 7 showed up. I love the risk and having no idea, or caring who's unloading in me.
*Seven loads up my guts

Thursday I put on my "fuck me jeans" and hit the park at night. My hole was loaded earlier by some anon stranger that contacted me saying a friend gave him my info and that I was a good fuck, so I invited him over to seed my hole before I went out cruising. I took five cocks and five loads up at the park, two from guys who were obviously homeless. They fucking reeked of liquor and cigs but really enjoyed fucking my hole and I really loved the fact I was sticking to my "no load refused" mentality.
* Six loads total

For Friday day, I decided to wear lingerie under my clothes and hit the gloryholes. I got there and stripped down to my leggings, garter, and lacy top. I spent the next 4 hours with my ass pressed against the hole taking all cummers. There were a lot of black men there that day and I felt like such a white whore letting black men breed me. I left my door unlocked the entire time and got off on men opening the door and watching me pig out on anonymous cocks. A few men joined me in my booth and fucked me nice and proper. I loved walking from booth to booth and cruising the hallways in my lingerie with cum dripping out of my butt and down my leg. I must have looked like such a mess!

I LOVE gloryholes. That feeling I get when a new dick comes through the hole, taking it into my mouth, making it hard, watching it grow and then when I turn around and slide back onto it, YUM. Nothing is hotter to me.

I got bred by seven horny fuckers.
* Seven loads up my asspussy

I stayed around the house and hosted a four men throughout the day. I got two black cocks, a middle-aged white guy, and a latin construction worker. The first was an overweight black guy with a FAT cock. He opened me up really well and deposited a big load in me. The second was the latino. He had a nice uncut cock and bred me quickly. He was in and out in about 5 minutes but left my ass dripping with his seed. Quick and dirty, just how I like it. The white guy was third and he wanted me face down, ass up, and blindfolded, so i obliged. He loved that my hole was all cummy and sloppy when he got here. I never saw the guy.
* Four loads up my butt

Sunday I was invited over to a guy's house that found me on CL. He said he and a few horny tops were looking for a bottom whore to breed and if I was interested in coming over. OF COURSE I was interested. When I got there I was greeted by 5 older men, most a bit overweight. The guys were between 50-65 yrs old and were all naked when I got there. They all seemed to like me and began fondling me and kissing me. They undressed me and led me into another room with a sling. Wow, I've never been in a real sling before and was really excited about living out another fantasy! I climbed up in the sling and the host immediately took his place between my legs, rimming my asshole real good.

Over the next few hours the horny old men took turns fucking the shit out of me, feeding me poppers, calling me names, and taking pictures and video of me getting fucked and bred. After the park incident, I guess I don't care about being video taped or having pictures taken of me. It's just part of being a total cumdump whore for anonymous cock I guess. They said it was just for their private collections, but who knows. They really seemed to enjoy breeding me and I loved taking their cocks and loads, a win-win. All in all I took 8 loads between the five men.
* Eight loads in my cunt

I took Monday off

I took Tuesday off

Monday, September 29, 2014

Video Recorded Against My Will

The other day I was in a particularly horny, slutty kind of mood so I decided to inject some of my own sperm up my butt, put on leggings, panties, and a lacy top under my street clothes, threw a towel in my backpack and headed out to my local cruising park in search of men to fill me with sperm.

I got to the park and found the little cove I like to get fucked in, stripped down to my slutty panties and top, laid down a towel, got on all fours, pushed my panties to the side exposing my asspussy, and waited.

As usual, I didn't have to wait long until I heard the cracking of leaves and sticks along the trail. My heart began to race. This is the part I love, getting discovered in compromising positions by strangers. Remember, it's the middle of the day and I'm naked except for women's lingerie, in a known gay cruising spot, on my hands and knees, ass in the air with cum dripping out of my ass. There's no mistaking what I am at this point, or why I'm there. I'm a bareback cumdump faggot cruising for stranger cock.

I heard the footsteps get closer and then stop and I knew someone was behind me. I turned around to find an old guy in sweatpants pulled down stroking his hard cock. I looked him in the eye, smiled, and motioned for him to come closer. He moved in front of me and I immediately took his cock into my mouth. I sat up on my knees to suck him, but still arching my back and ass to keep my cumhole on display, I devoured his cock. It was nice, about 7" long and fairly thick. I nice, fat old man cock! What a good way to start the day. As I was blowing my old stranger and looking up into his eyes, I noticed his gaze shift from my slutty mouth to behind me. Experience told me that another man was now with us and watching me. I reached back with both hands while the old man's cock was still in my mouth and spread my ass open wide for whoever was behind me. The old man began fucking my mouth and then I felt hands on my back and on my ass. I guess stranger #2 took the bait! :) I took the old man's cock in my hand and turned around a little to see a middle-aged latino man behind me, hands all over me. The latino stuck two fingers up my hole and when he realized I was lubed and ready, said "Oh fuck yeah", and unzipped his pants pulling his uncut latin cock out of his zipper. He pushed his cock against my hole and I stopped with the old man's cock, reached back and grabbed the latino at the base of his cock and guided him inside me. Like I said, my hole was already lubed and I slid back taking his entire length inside me with no issue.

I went back to all fours and the old guy sat on the ground in front of me, spreading his legs to allow me to continue sucking his cock. I closed my eyes and got lost in the two cocks that were invading my holes. I had no idea who these guys were, I've never seen them before nor did I know their names, but they each had a cock inside me and I was doing my best to milk the sperm from their cocks. I opened my eyes and looked to the side and saw another man had joined us and was watching the action, rubbing his cock from outside his pants. He had his phone in his other hand and was clearly recording me!

"No recording!", I said, firmly.

He chuckled and said, "You're hardly in a position to be making demands." and just kept filming me!

At first my head started spinning. I was pissed! How long has he been here? What's he going to do with the video? What if people find out I'm a cumdump?

Then reality set in. He was right. I was in no position to be making demands. I was in lingerie, in a public park during the day with a cock in each hole. I put myself in this position. This is my fault and I'm finally getting what I deserve. "Oh well", I said to myself, and took the old man back into my mouth. This guy was going to record me regardless of what I wanted and there was really nothing I could do about it.

"Please don't get my face", I tried to negotiate.

"Too late", he said laughing.

Fuck. I realized at this point it was too late, the damage had been done, so I just embraced it, and focused on the cocks inside me. It's not like guys haven't recorded me before, it's just that I'm usually blindfolded and my face isn't exposed. Also, I'm sure because I can't see the camera usually, it's less real to me.

About thirty seconds later my latino barebacker grabbed my hips and started salaaming his cock in and out of me, forcing the old man's cock deep down my throat, moaning and grunting. I knew what was coming and began encouraging him. "Fuck yeah, breed me!" I begged. "Uhhhhhhhhhhhhh" he exclaimed as he held me tight, shooting his cum deep inside me.

The latino pulled out, got up and disappeared. The old man who was in my mouth also got up and moved behind me.

"On your back", he demanded.

I flipped over on my back, grabbed my legs and spread them open. Fuck yeah, my old man is about to fuck me. Still filming, the middle aged white guy moved closer and pointed the camera at my dripping hole as the old man slid his rock hard cock right up my cum filled hole. The camera man had his cock out now and moved beside me, allowing me to take him into my mouth.

I loved it. I looked straight up into the camera as he fed me his average sized cock, sucking and slurping. I was putting on a real show. I figured if I was going to be recorded against my will, I had might as well do a good job so that other men would see it and want to fuck me too.

As I'm getting fucked and recorded, another guy appears from the bushes. An older black man with a baseball cap with graying hair and glasses. He walks right up, stands beside me, looking down at me and just says, "wow", shaking his head in almost disbelief as he pulled his cock out of his jeans. I love it when men look at me in shock and disgust. Why shouldn't he be disgusted? I'm getting bareback gangbanged by strangers in a park wearing lingerie.

I kept my eyes on the black cock and my mouth on the white cock. I fucking love black dick and wanted him to know it. As I'm pigging out, the black guy reaches into his pocket and pulls out his phone also. He points it at me and it's clear he's now recording me too! Fuck. He obviously thought it was OK because the white guy was doing it.

The black guy kneeled down on his knees and put his cock in front of my face. I never say no to black cock, so I abandoned the white cock and went to work on the black one. The black guy and the white guy were now holding each of my legs back, allowing the old guy fucking me full access to my hole.

"You love cock, don't you, boy?", the black man asked, pointing his camera right at my face.

I didn't take his cock out of my mouth, I just groaned and responded "mmm hmmm"

Just then the old man fucking me exclaimed, "I'm going to cum!"

"Cum inside me", I demanded.

His body tensed up and he closed his eyes, throwing his head back as he emptied his balls deep inside me.

When he was done, the white camera man moved around to my hole and the black guy grabbed both of my legs and pulled back on them while the white guy video taped my gaping, cum-dripping hole.

I pushed some of the cum out onto my hand and began jerking my rock hard cock.

"Your turn", the white guy sad to the black guy.

The black guy took his place at my hole and wasted no time just shoving it in.

"Fuck yeah",  encouraged, as the black guy began fucking me.

The white guy, at this point, seemed more interested in filming and moved behind the black guy to get different angles of my hole getting pounded. This went on for a few minutes until the black guy unloaded in me, stood up, stopped filming, and left.

"Now it's my turn", the white guy said, still filming me.

I grabbed my legs and pulled them back as the white guy prepared to mount me.He had the camera pointed right at my face and I looked straight into the camera and begged, "please fuck me, oh god, please fuck me!"

He grabbed the base of his cock with his other hand, and guided his cock inside my dripping hole, camera still pointed directly at my face. I closed my eyes and threw my head back in lust as he entered me. "Oh, god, yes..." I purred.

"You like that raw dick, don't you, boy?", he asked.

I opened my eyes, looked right into the camera and said, "Yes, sir!"

"You like getting your holes filed by strangers, don't you?"

"Yes, sir!"

"You're a filthy fucking cumdump whore, aren't you?"

"Yes, sir!"

He turned the camera down to my hole as he was fucking me.

"Look at that sloppy cum filled hole!"

"Yes, sir! Breed my pussy. Breed my pussy", I begged.

"Here it comes!", he exclaimed.

He reached down and put his hand around my neck and began choking me as he emptied his balls inside me. He held me there, emptying every last drop of his cum deep inside me and pulled out with a *plop*. I could feel cum running down my cheeks. He stood up and I stayed in position with my legs pulled back, asspussy still exposed.

"Look at you, you pathetic faggot.", he said, grinning as still filming me, "this is going on the internet."

My heart sank.

"No, please. Don't make this public," i begged, as reality started sinking in.

"Like you have any say. Thanks, faggot.", and he put his phone away, zipped up, and left.

Fuck! What just happened to me? Why did I let this happen? Why didn't i stop? Why did I look directly into the camera and not at least try to hide my face? What's going to happen if people see this? If it gets out? This isn't just regular sex with a man. That's understandable, but how will people react when they see me dressed in lingerie getting barebacked by strangers in public? That's depraved and the bottom of the barrel. Fuck.